What ?

The truth is : I'm not meditating.

I have read some books recently. Leo Hartong's book "Awakening to the Dream" says that one cannot attain "it" through meditation. I haven't finished the book yet (read the 40 or 50 pages). He says that one may have a chance to attain "It" when that person understands clearly that meditation or whatever effort cannot be used for the purpose.

Ok, I ask myself : Have I understood it ? I don't meditate any more like before and may be by not doing anything, have I got a chance to become "enlightened" ?

But sincerely, I must say that I'm no more "motivated" for "That". I feel a real interest for "That" when I read books but no more motivation. No more "regular practice".

So, is there any meaning blogging here ? Seems that I'm not interesting to myself when I read what I actually wrote here.

I don't know if my actual state can be generalized as one of those kinds of a "dark night of the soul". I'm not unhappy as is the case for the "dark nighters". I feel well, I do sports, I read ...

Ok, I'll post again when I've got something interesting to say. I'm actually too much addicted to internet ... So much addicted that I have no time for meditation. May be that is the reason why I'm not doing any meditation ?

bye for now,
placido