"Personified meditation" concept

No time for blogging. I'm busy. I'm just consumed by activities : at least I'm sometimes aware of my being consumed by the mundane activities (eating, sleeping, doing job, doing this and that).

And seems that nobody is following my blog.

Anyway, I just wanted to write that all readings, thoughts - however subtle and refined - are materialistic. Even practising meditation is materialistic. Only the stateless state is real and all attempts to attain That are ... (I don't know how to end this in a balanced way).

That said, meditation and reading books to maintain a high-level of thought are very good and necessary in the beginning (even after, it's always good to keep the childish mind on a high level). But, there comes a time when they must be disregarded in order to evolve. Like in school you must not stay in the same class doing additions and substractions ...

So, what happens when you leave all readings, theories, methods on meditation because you played enough with them ? Well, in my words, you are guided. By what ? I don't know. Somehow you feel it.

Have you yourself decided to meditate ? While meditating, are you sure that you were really the meditator ? May be you never had any control on anything ... May be the "personified meditation" meditates the meditator ?! May be you weren't the subject of the experience. Sounds crazy, but try to "feel" this concept without too much logical analysis.

The ego always thinks that it is the doer, the knower and the center of perception and a concept like this cannot be accepted. It is programmed to destroy anything which stands on its way ... to preserve itself !